China Daily

the thieves want freedom, so he chose to escape. But the fact is that, although his body free, can be the soul seemed to fall into a ubiquitous prison. 19 years in exile, he lost the affection, love and career, anxious all day. Today, he chose surrender, returned to prison to begin to live a calm life of an ordinary prisoner -

von lifetime before shipment are at large. This from a man in Henan Zhumadian Shen Zhai Xiang has been the number is not clear how many copies of their work done, ran the number, and even remember how many used their own pseudonym. Since 1991, escaped from prison in Henan Zhoukou, he only thought of the brain, only from outside the prison walls that Lei Cheng Road, red brick only.

now he intends to go back. July 16, when the 39-year-old middle-aged man and his father, Mao Zhaoyu, trip to the prison is located east Wang Yingxiang the car, he walked calmly steps look as if its going just such a common place.

"I think it over, now the only way to go still." Feng said originating head down. Head on the exposed stud white hair.

19 years of exile had flattened his young life, Sheng Qi, wrinkles and fat also goes on with the climb up the face was dark tan. He spoke the tone smooth, low voice, which makes it difficult to imagine, years ago, he had a wandering the streets, acting in a dangerous hooligan impulse.

1989, the von shipment when the neighbor was caught stealing, as eager to escape, he took a piece of brick on the other shot in the past. Face subsequent criminal detention, and after six months because the burglary was sentenced to six years in prison, the 18-year-old young man, "heart weakening," spent in prison less than a year, they take advantage of the night, with tear sheets into a cloth, tied bags filled with sand, fertilizer, hanging in the prison wall, climb down the rope out.

But then, the young man bent on escape simply not thought that he came out from the prison can do. He only vaguely felt, in the high red brick wall outside the Road, "is freedom." Escaped the night, running in the Hei Ququ way, his mind only one thought: "Leave this place, the sooner the better!"

Today, Feng shipment is no longer a young man, and But the 70-year-old accompanied his father to re-embark on the road back to prison. I think of the last "free" for 19 years, he just shook his head: "Those days, I live enough, now I just want to Anan Sheng birthplace of life."

ran out of prison in just a few days Li, Feng shipment just spared far, relying on picking up litter on the way forward. He slept vegetable every day, "mosquito bite no"; later, garbage man would save a few dollars, he spent a dollar a day, and juggler, playing tricks together, sleep in the countryside odor smelling simple inn.

because there is no identity, no account was afraid the police found in the next 10 years, the young and strong men only in the countryside or outskirts of the city to wander around and do sell out strength of the heavy lifting. He picked off in Henan broken, over gold mining in Shanxi, Hubei done in construction workers, has even dug coal in Shanxi ... ...

these left an indelible imprint. In the mine, his head was an orange-sized gravel have opened the one conspicuous scars has also been seen along the mine workers were smashed off under his arm, cut off the scalp. Even in front of him, an over 30-year-old workers was a sudden drop of the huge coal life and life stoned.

the story of these moments of life and death, and now just casually mentioned by von shipment. In the four days of flight, they like a little spray, it is easy to be drowned in his memory is full of horror.

his body free, can be the soul seems to fall back into a ubiquitous prison. Do not know how many times, he dreamed that he was sought by the police, desperate to run but can not escape the ultimate whole body cold sweat to awaken. Sometimes, the day did their homework and went to bed exhausted, he would suddenly think, "he was a fugitive." So over and over again in your head, "daylight could not sleep."

but he never talked about them to others. Most others feel that von shipment eccentric, because he rarely speak with others. Even in the face to talk to people, most of the time he was only listening to people complain, does not mention his past.

alcohol became his best friend, he always rely on drinking "kill time" every day after work back "home", he will cook a bowl of noodles, heat two buns, and then drink 45 bottles of beer, until the drunk fell asleep. Can really have a neighbor asked him to drink, but he never dared to go, for fear of "drunk tell the truth," said his "fugitive" status.

Now he is afraid of. In Zhumadian East Wang Yingxiang, von shipment and father of the car and continue to move forward in the direction prison. The escape of the prisoners decided to surrender for 19 years, these stories are no longer buried in the heart of the.

When these memories are awakened, this middle-aged nearly 40, often immersed in the flowing details in. Part of them, is about love and a girl called slope slope. Many years later, von shipment can clearly remember the girl's appearance: large eyes, giving her a one-tailed.

15 years ago, Tongguan County in Shaanxi, a village, he "first felt the attraction." This has never fallen in love "Male doll" girls love to conspire next "chat", then, he always took some "legal system literature" of the magazine, looking for a chance to ask her: "This is the first book by you Kan Ba? "

be his" attack "was always more than that. He thought out loud to the girl say "I love you" or "I want to do with your boyfriend," but really girl friends to match, he can only coldly refused: "I'm married, I want to go home. "

" how can I do? I was a fugitive ah. "Feng said shipment," I can not get married, do not want to harm her. "He quickly left the Tongguan, no see the girls side.

few years later, he was back here and saw this girl named slope slope, stands with her boyfriend, but to cast his "angry eyes." This year in June, when he Tongguan a breakfast shop in again to see this girl, she has body fat and, led the two children, is also sitting across the table did not recognize myself.

19 after years of wandering, Feng FOB accent has been mixed in Shanxi, Shaanxi dialect throughout, for his impression of his more and more blurred, and even sometimes he would guess, parents will feel that he has "gone"?

he would often imagine, if they are not fugitives, life would be like. Perhaps their early married to a wife, but also to be a small business. He began to regret more and more frequently, if he did not escape, another in 2045 released from prison, they can lead a normal life; not now, do not know when to release.

had finished, he suddenly felt old, "no effort is easy to" look in the mirror, no longer the "bare face, like the spirit of" how to see how like a "old man" . He thought of death. This idea has become increasingly clear when the shipment Feng decided to return home committed suicide. After all, the "wild in the ditch to find out easily, also not willing to die."

in the street 10 years later, von shipment has finally returned to his village after an absence of long-standing. Had been to the village people find out his father's address, he almost did not recognize their own brush with blue paint really tall brick buildings - 19 years ago, the external walls of the house it also paste the mud.

He knocked on the door. The moment the door opened, Feng shipment was found, opened the door of his father "Old too ruthless," and hair white, his face has a lot more wrinkles. The father was just looking at him with suspicion: "are you looking for?"

"I'm your child, and now come back to see you." Feng said shipment. Somewhat taken aback, his father, tears down the wrinkled face fell off.

19 years he has not come back. Ran out from prison, he came in several counties around the turn of the laps back and forth, never ventured home to see one, did not dare to write a letter to parents, a phone call. He was concerned that the police find themselves, but also afraid of their own shame my family, "people called back."

he wanted to commit suicide, but a lifetime to do what the farmers do not agree with the father said. He hurried to interrupt von shipment: "We are all still alive, white-haired man reluctantly sent hair!"

von shipment silent child: "I hear you, the only way out only turned herself. "

7 月 evening of 15, turned himself in von shipment ready to go the day before the three men at home together, eat the first 19 years Dayton reunion dinner. 3 bottles of beer on the table, his brother did not drink, my father had a few drinks, and the rest were drank von shipment - it is 19 years, the first time he drank at ease with others.

to leave the house the next day in front of stuffed von shipment of 100 dollars to his younger brother, did not send out with the tears of mothers say, "After all, jail is not a glorious thing ... ... "

be time to change everything, even prisons are no exception. Feng shipment carrying two packages luggage away two years, the prison did not see the familiar. He and his father to the nearby people inquire, before we know the prison redevelopment a few years ago, everyone moved out. Look at the wheat fields not densely, with what they have escaped out of that block walls, but also has not disappeared, von shipment heart suddenly "a little nervous."

16 evening, some find out after the rush of the day father and son finally arrived at the restored after the Zhoukou prison. Feng went to guard the outpost next to the shipment, carefully asked: "Comrades, I have something you want to discuss the matter. I've come to surrender, I escape from here 20 years ago ... ..."

even prison guards could not help but surprise Dengda eyes: "20 years ago ?!"

indeed, too long, the counselor who had supervised the shipment Feng retired, he used two bags Back to the clothes, buckets, blankets, turned into a uniform distribution, even those built around the prison walls from the ring, he felt fresh: "tall and long, more than out of a wire above, like" Young and Dangerous "inside the same."

Now, in accordance with the law, this middle-aged man returning to prison not only served the original sentence, also faces escape Infliction. In the days of waiting for Infliction result, he often stood by the window, across the fence to see the outside sky, green grass, there was barbed wire attached Road, gray walls.

"He is not a heinous criminals," a prison staff evaluated the von shipment, "then, he was just a young innocent Robber."

but This young innocent Robber, now has nearly 40 years old. He wasted too much time, but did not prevent him from looking forward to life after the end of his sentence: Maybe you can do business, "Perhaps that time be smarter, and make money"; may be farming, or something something else.

"At least, I finally no longer a fugitive." The escape of 19 men standing in a gray prison walls, the face has emerged out of a calm smile.